Unlearn to learn further.
Unburden to carry other’s burdens.
Unlove but Fill your tank
with God’s Love to pour it out on others.
“Pray for Forgetfulness for if you tend to forget the good done by you to others and continue in your penance of compassion, the serpent of arrogance will never be able to poison your soul. You will be grounded with the weight of a jewel called Humility.”
Let me move beyond me
And look at them
Whom no eyes seem to see
In the world’s din and mayhem.
My pain I thought was searing enough
Nothing could match my agony
Life and living were tough
I felt as if I would break into a spree of mindless felony
To endure betrayal isn’t a joke
The heart that has bared and shared its all
No one should prick and poke
Love sure needs respond to love’s strong call
Accepting I was wrong
Wasn’t just that easy
I knew I loved well all along
How then have I landed here, all drained out and queasy?
Trust begets trust
Love begets love
These pretty bubbles have now simply burst
And, I choose to lie quietly down as a dove
To pick up the reins
And gallop through liferoads again
Needs unshackling from deep depressive chains
Will I ever get up and traverse in pathways of gain?
My heartaches are known to me alone
The best of sympathizers
Cannot just my anxieties dethrone
With even the most effective tranquilizers
The earth beneath my foot
Has suffered a violent shake
My life now is covered with slimy dark soot
Oh what good of it can I ever make?
In what extent of time my heart would finally heal
I don’t know fully well
When would I the deep peace feel
I never really can tell
And thus my thoughts wandered off
To those far and near
Who face many an unwanted scoff
And shed many a hidden tear
And then I thought –
Let me move beyond me
And look at them
Whom no eyes seem to see
In the world’s din and mayhem.
I kept wandering in the pursuit of happiness that never had any definitey.
I was surrounded by the maddening chatter of desires that robbed me of my serenity.
I kept looking for flaws in others to prove my superiority.
I was an obnoxious, boisterous trumpet busy in singing laurels in self-praise, deprived of humility.
I invested myself to the extent of immersion in the worldly ties that costed me my sobriety.
I propelled higher in the skies of baseless egos and crude pride that I lost connection with the reality.
I was absorbed by the frivolous vanity of material charms that left me with insanity.
I let my greed take over my senses and I became nefarious and lost even my humanity leave aside divinity.
I was flowing with the directionless wind until I encountered – Failure, Old Age, Illness & Death – Teachers who teach everyone without disparity.
I soon yet quite lately realised that I was so far indulged in a mirage hunt that never existed even remotely.
I now stood as a silent spectator, witnessing the changing masks, perhaps the real faces – shedding down inhibitions and civility.
I was baffled at first, agitated, and finally struck by melancholy to see everything moving away from my proximity.
I crumbled down like a brittle wall and wailed hard that echoed within, digging up and unearthing the dormant soul resting under the debris of mistaken identity.
I was now bound to listen to the resonating call of my true companion that completely shook me first with remorse only to bring stability.
I realised the riches I amassed throughout never comforted me, contrary to that delight dwelled in a charity that has never been my priority.
I always had a safe distance from compassion while arrogance choreographed my relations that weathered away in the face of a calamity.
I, now a solitary reaper of venomous fruits of bitter seeds of my deeds quizzed my companion to suggest a way if any that leads to liberty.
I overheard as my companion whispered to my heart “seek forgiveness and salvation from the ever compassionate Almighty”.
I was again left in the lurch ” how shall I go about seeking the ultimate one and escape from the world and its duplicity.
I was startled when a voice echoed from within “shall I call you ignorant or address as innocent? Still searching out, paying no heed to the one residing in you since eternity”.
I stood sans commotion, letting the silence speak eloquently to and within me, taking the charge of my senses for the first time in a while now and soaking in the tranquillity.
I felt the warmth of my tears drenching my barren heart as his words are aiding cultivation of compassion & righteousness that would yield the crop of wisdom, the profit of salvation, making soul opulent, and lofty.
I latched onto the light of truth, dispelled the fog of ignorance that enveloped my being, the cluster that insidiously gripped me is losing its ground, a life that seemed enigmatic is now deriving it’s meaning while rediscovering its beauty!!!
Ever since I shifted to Bangalore, I chose not to keep a household help and preferred to do the chores myself so that I stay active at home. People often are taken aback and ask me how do I manage to do so much all by myself and I tell them that I want to maintain an active lifestyle and without going out for work, this will ensure my routine in the house doesn’t get lethargic. Doing the cleaning job myself ensures that all the nooks and crannies are clean and clear from unwanted dirt and dust.
Lately, like many others, I too have become the victim of pandemic stress. Yes, I must admit that on watching and reading the news videos and similar stuff, I ended up fuelling up the negative thoughts inside me. I even wasn’t sure if I could write up my article scheduled for today because I was feeling too low until I talked to Chiradeep, whom I messaged about my inability to write. While we discussed the increasing rate of depression in this COVID era, we also conversed on how we can immerse ourselves in doing positive things. It’s strange, yet funny at times when you know the exact cause of your worry and still keep thinking about it. The situation is similar to that web in one of those corners of your room. You know that you have to remove it with the broom, but you try to ignore it instead, only to realize that the spider has got enough time to build a bigger web. And, when it becomes too shabby, you just swipe it with a broom.
Our brain is now filled with numerous stuff- work, chores, kids (their health, online classes, screen time, entertainment, homework, etc), immunity of family, and a lot more. Above all this, we load our minds with all the negative stuff that we come across social media. And this needs to stop. We need to sweep away this adverse junk to make the head feel lighter and life easier. Apart from this, you have to trust. Trust in God. Believe in your prayers, asking Him to remove every dirt that you have in your minds. He is and will be there for you, forever.
As a kid, I wasn’t dependent on the mirror but the more I am growing the more I am disposed to using a mirror. Then Mumma used to fashion me the way she wanted me to look like and then I never sought approval from the mirror. But as I grew up, I had the freedom to fashion myself the way I wanted to, and each time I went to the mirror for the first approval of my choice. Undoubtedly, as we grow up, we seek the approval of a mirror in our day-to-day lives because the mirror exactly represents us. Coining it perfectly Charlie Chaplin said,
“The mirror is my best friend, because when I cry it never laughs.”
As a grown-up man today, the closer I get to the mirror the more intently I can spot the imperfections on my face. I treated the pimple marks, sunburn patches, black spots, acne scars on my face but again it was the mirror who witnessed my ugly scarred face and also now the healed and better-looking face.
“If the mirror would be a human being, no one could ever dare to lie to a mirror”.
Interweaving the mirror metaphor to life, life always demands the mirror. We need the object mirror for the glorious physical appearance of our physical entity. A few minutes’ workouts at the instructions of this mere object’ prepares us with perfect physical appearance. Its instruction helps us to treat facial imperfections. Switching to the second entity of human life – The Spiritual. The mere mortal, finite human life is filled to varieties of flaws within. Physique that carries weakness and diseases within, the mind is always filled with negativity, every work gives some negative impact and above all, we live within a flaw filled environment. Undoubtedly, OUR SOUL also demands a mirror! But the advice or teachings of another mere human being also carries their own flaws and obeying them might multiply my existing flaws. Well, the question remains – WHERE CAN I FIND A MIRROR FOR MY SOUL?
The Bible verses say,
God’s inspired word – THE BIBLE is the mirror for our soul.
Oh, taste, and see how good is this mirror!
The more we get closer to the LORD, God the more visible the sins of our heart and as we follow God’s command and treat our heart, we find salvation for our souls. The imprint of such a state is a humble human and a matured disciplined mind. But the far we run away from the mirror of our soul (The Bible) the fuzzier is our heart seems to us. The Bible says,
“Anyone who listens to the words of the Bible but does not do what it says
Is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself,
Goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like.”
“Mamma, why is my soap always white? Why do you have colorful soaps?” asked 4 year old Mohit while his mother was giving him a bath.
“Because your soap is the baby soap and my soap is an adult soap which comes in various other colors?” replied Anusha
“But I also want colorful soaps.” Said Mohit stomping his foot hard on the wet floor of the bathroom while Anusha ignored his tantrum and continued to clean him.
Later in the day, she logged on Amazon and ordered few of those colorful, animal shaped baby soaps for her son – just to avoid any more tantrums and so that he could enjoy the bath time.
The trick worked and first soap that he got was a yellow colored lion shaped soap. He loved it so much that he started taking bath himself. He would make lion roars in the bathroom, would talk to this lion and keep it nicely in the soap case after every bath. Bathing time became the most enjoyable fun time for little Mohit.
A week later, the detailing of lion’s face started to fade off. A couple of weeks later – it became just a soap, it wasn’t a lion anymore.
“Mamma, where is the lion now? Why can’t I see him?” said Mohit staring at the yellow soap which now was just a soap.
“The lion got dissolved in water.” Anusha said smiling nicely to her son.
Mohit had tears in his eyes now. “Why did the lion dissolve? Did I hurt him?”
“No my dear, you didn’t hurt him. You just helped the soap fulfill its purpose.” Said Anusha.
“What is a purpose, Mamma?” asked Mohit
“Purpose is something that you are supposed to do in your lifetime. The soaps are made so that they can dissolve themselves in order to cleanse others. This particular lion soap was created not only to clean you but also to entertain you. It did its job well. You loved the lion for the last two weeks, didn’t you?” said Anusha
“Can I get an elephant this time, please Mamma?” asked Mohit with a twinkle in his eye
“Of course, I will get it for you once this lion is completely gone. See, even when the face of the lion is gone – its body is still there. You got to use it and when it completely disappears, I will get you an elephant.” Said Anusha.
“Ok, Mamma.” Said Mohit now busy with the lion once again.
Anusha continued to wonder about the important lesson of purpose she had just imparted to her son. Every soap is made with a purpose to clean others and in that process it selflessly dissolves itself. While fulfilling its purpose, it completely vanishes and then is replaced by another soap.
Similarly, we are sent on this earth to fulfill our purpose and while doing so we spend all our energies and one day we just vanish only to be replaced by our next generations. Life goes on this way for ages and ages. And there cannot be a better purpose than to cleanse others of their dirt while dissolving our own life little by little each day.