Building something new is difficult.
Rebuilding something to give a fresh look is all the more difficult.
Look behind, if you have left anything broken rebuild it.
If anything is undone, do it with passion and enthusiasm.
There is time for everything under the sun
And there is a season to learn many lessons…
Yes, that’s what I would say 2018 was for me!
There were some treasured moments which I’ve shared and there was also the time of despair which I’ve carried alone. At times, the beauty of my dreams amazed me and later the shattering sound of some of them startled me. I made many promises, some to God and some to people, in some I fulfilled and in some, I failed.
As I approached the New Year afternoon, some of the big questions which were confusing me, quietly –
HOW AM I GOING TO FINISH THIS NEW RACE “2019”?
CAN I GUARANTEE, 2019 WILL BE A ROSY YEAR FOR ME?
CERTAINLY, ON WHOM CAN I TRUST?
New Year is a journey which starts with many UNCERTAINTIES and ends with many REALITIES. As I started this journey from Uncertainty to Reality, three things I learnt to focus on –
Excess Baggage Is Chargeable – Yes, we all are conscious about it when we travel. Analogically, it is quite relevant in our New Year journey. Carrying The Pain of Failure, The Old Weaknesses, The Grudge of Old Fights, The Guilt of the Past Wretch can greatly charge us this year.
The Bible Says, “Forget the old stinky things that you left behind and strain toward what is ahead of you to crown you with the glory of God.”
Hurly-burly is Expected – Life is not always a rosy path filled with colours, softness and scent. Time of turbulence is inevitable to teach us and mature us from imperfection to perfection.
The Bible says, “Therefore, we do not lose heart. Outwardly it will seem like wasting away, yet inwardly we will be renewed day by day. Let us, fix our eyes on what is unseen – the eternal glory & the future light of life”.
Trust your Travel Partner – In the journey of life, we must love people as we love ourselves but when it comes to trust them for a definite purpose we need to be mindful. It is always risky to trust a human being. He is a mere human just like me, his days on earth are like the grass that soon withers so as mine. I am finite and mortal as he is. How can he be the perfect one to trust for my future hope! BUT IF NOT HE, THEN WHO?
WHO IS MY TRAVEL PARTNER, WHOM CAN I TRUST?
The Bible says, “God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. He does what he speaks and He promises and fulfils them”.
Warm Greetings and Prayers for your meaningful start of 2019!
Every night dies to birth a new dayEvery season ends to let the next one bloomThe dry leaves wither for new ones to sproutSo if things seem dark, and you feel it can’t get worse than this, remember something Wonderful is round the corner…
So, we are once again at the crossover. Once again hoping that the next year will be great. Once again retrospecting what this passing year gave us, took from us, left with us.
I am thinking how to fill this page, but I am filled with a weird sort of void. At the same time, I am overwhelmed with all that happened.
I won’t say it was one of the best years of my life, but then good, better and best, these superlatives are perceptions, depending on our sagacity. I took one great hit this year, an emotional trauma that I am not able to forget and move on. It cost me deeply, it cost me some cherished bonds and lots of trusts.
I also saw two of my very close family members suffer greatly owing to terminal diseases and I am unsure whether they will be with us for long. And I sold something of nostalgic significance to me. But I have to convince myself that it was for the best.
This year taught me that friends must be made with utmost care and prudence and some people are just not meant to be with you for a very long time. I realised that mental peace is the key to hard work. Without a calm mind, without tranquillity of the soul, you will lose all your charm and your talents along with your vision dreams. In this journey called life, you have to let go off many people and many things that were once dear to you.
I have grown as a person this year. I am proud of myself for somethings and embarrassed about a few. But the secret is to accept it all and move on, never stay stagnant. I saw a lot of change in me, and earlier I was scared of changing but now I know, it is the only right way to be. A person who won’t accept change will erode with time.
I am also disappointed in myself for not chasing my aspirations vehemently. I should have given them more of my time. But no use regretting, let this coming year be a clean sheet and let us all rewrite our destiny. I am gonna see at least one of my dream realise this year.
For you all, my readers and my writer friends, I hope the coming year brings you all happiness and health, wealth and wisdom, love and friendship and last but not the least, peace and hope. I am in no position to preach, but I am an Indian too, I can’t help but give some unsolicited advice.
“Stay Humble. Stay Kind. Stay Humane. Think Twice. Act Wisely. Save For Future. Don’t Waste Food. Care to Share. Forget Sorrows. Forgive Foes. Fall in Love. Value Parents. Spend Time with Family. Take A Trip. and Live Good!
Happy New Year!!!
It is this time of the year when most of us wonder how quickly the year passed by. Well, this year is no exception but it has been exceptionally exceptional for us!
I cannot end this year without expressing my gratitude to Almighty for blessing us with baby Aarnav. I cannot express my joy and satisfaction for being a mother. I am immensely happy to have baby Aarnav with us against all odds. This year has been like never before because it is in this year that I have transformed into a different human being – a mother, someone who doesn’t care how she looks, someone who doesn’t rest enough in order to give more time to baby, someone who doesn’t mind waking up 10 times from the slumber just to rock and nurse the baby, someone who doesn’t mind being peed and pooped on innumerable times in a day 😊. I am happy that I am making my way to be a selfless mom! So this year has majorly been about being pregnant, delivering the baby, and enjoying every day with him, celebrating his every milestone and wondering whether there is anything better on earth than this little baby of mine.
I am looking forward to 2019 to be as fulfilling as 2018. Some key things I would like to do in 2019 are –
1. Fitness: Very important that I take my fitness seriously. I need to match the energy level of my little one plus manage a job and household
2. Being mommy: Oh yes, I am totally into motherhood. At the cost of repetition, let me tell you that I always wanted to be a mother and after a long long wait finally I am. I wouldn’t mind considering a sibling for baby Aarnav, but will have to check with my husband too 😜
3: Going back to ambitious self: Oh yes, maybe next year! At present, I am far away from professional ambitions and merrily enjoying being Mumma.
4: Work on spiritual growth.
Few learnings 2018 gave me that I would like to carry forward with me:
1. Willpower works magic
2. You get what you are destined to. No odds can stop you.
3. You can endure far more than you can imagine, so never quit.
4. Life is a lot more than career and money making.
5. While making money is important and growing professionally is as much important too, but there are little things in life that give you far more satisfaction and happiness than materialistic things. Take time to enjoy that.
The year 2018. It started briskly without any drama or charm or newness in it. When I returned back to Kolkata leaving my native place – Cuttack, there was a glimpse of sorrow in my eyes. Somehow, I was not feeling very great going back to my workplace. In fact, I just wanted to rest, rest and rest in every way at home in Cuttack.
But… those were just wishes which always remain as wishes only. I had to come back and start getting busier with my routine work again.
When someone suggested this topic and I thought it would be nice to write on this by retrospecting and introspecting about my own life in 2018 and what I hope for the year to come in 2019.
If I look back to the year 2017, I would say it was a very bad year for me in all respect – mentally, emotionally and physically. And compared to that previous year, I would say, 2018 was a better one though there was a new heartwrenching feeling deep in my heart, asking me to be more disciplined in my life in aspects of my life. Let me reflect a bit about it…
The lesson in 2018: I am extremely into social networks. Bad habit. I would say, a very bad habit for a person like me. That definitely made me neglect a few of my surroundings and my relationships that are much more important than online friends, articles and quotes etc. But when my wife started to get addicted to Whatsapp and I felt neglected I understood it. I was like – “What are you doing? All the time Whatsapp? Why?“
But then God’s spirit poked my heart and whispered to me in His most convincing way of communicating – “Don’t you know what the Bible says about your problem – ‘Treat others the same way you want them to treat you’. Don’t you think it is unreasonable to expect something from others that you yourself have never done for them before? How can you be so selfish and self-centred and think that you have all the rights to do whatever you want and others will always do what is right and good for you?“
Those stirring awakening words from God were enough for me. I was enlightened right away about my fault and understood what I had been doing till that time of enlightenment and what I should be doing henceforth. Instead of telling and advising my wife about what to do and what not to do, I started to curb my ways of dealing with my life – I stopped extensive use of social network. I mean drastically I changed my style of using the social networking sites.
You may ask whether I see any benefit coming my way after I dealt with my bad habit… Yes, I saw a glimpse of benefit coming my way though not considerably. And how can everything be alright in a short span when I have been committing the same act for a longer period of time? Fair enough, isn’t it?
How about you, friends? Do you relate to my life lesson? Does this help you enough to aware you of your mistake or you need some more time and more stirring events to happen in your life for you to awake and act upon it?
I have learnt my lessons, you learn it too soon.
In 2019, I will be more disciplined and will be treating others the same way as I want them to treat me.
When Chiradeep announced the topic for this week “What’s on your mind?” I was like “Ok, let the bucket of my bucket list flow” as if I was waiting for someone to ask this question 😂😂.
Resolutions, Bucket List, Goals – Naam mein kya rakha hai! (What’s there in the name), there are certain things that I want to, that I must accomplish. They would give me the gratification of achieving independence and mental peace.
- Have to travel the distance between the passenger seat to driver’s seat: I never had a driver’s license in my life, never been behind any steering or handle. And frankly never bothered about thanks to the public transport and on-call taxi services. Easy escape! I would agree. But now I have realised I have to don the cap of a driver TOO (😂) for my kids. Though my husband is just a call away when amidst busy schedules it reiterates on the fact that “I am dependent on him”. I want to shed that. Getting a licence would clearly spell new-found independence to me. And yes many more rounds of shopping 😂😂. So Driving Licence is on my mind, wish me luck😉.
- Learn For My Kids: Making kids learn, get their interest invested needs learning on my part too. For instance, my son had a terrible last week, major meltdowns, very aggressive which I think (I believe and wish) is a passing phase only. I discussed the same thing with his Therapist, he gave some massaging tips to relax him, I observed to be able to help him when things go haywire. So this is what I was talking about – Learning. My resolution for next year includes learning new things and ways to help my kids learn better, behave well and stay happy. I have to take the driver’s seat here as well😁.
- Invest In My Interests: I won’t beat around the bush, I would make it a point to write and paint more often (some baking too😂). Writing, painting and showcasing it to near and dear ones gives me a high and solace of another level. And practising only can make a WO(MAN) perfect, what say😎.
- Shed laziness: How I wish I was not a procrastinator. This is a major flaw in my personality. My alarm is witness to my laziness, I made it my partner in crime as every time it signals me to wake up I put it to doze off, you can now imagine the heights of laziness! So hopefully next year I can….. 😴😴😴😴 alarm set!!
There are few more that squeezed themselves to be on my list – losing a few pounds, gaining more patience, better socialization, getting a job or enrolling into a new course and learn and enhance knowledge. Well, one thing that would always top the chart of my priorities is “Be a good human being“. Because my dependency, my flawed characteristic traits, lack of expertise, blurred identity – literally everything can be pardoned if I serve my purpose of being a human. I have always and would continue to strive for being a compassionate person, period!