Trusting my own decisions has never come easily to me. I always rethink my decisions weighing all the pros and cons over and over again. Even while making a small decision of buying a dress, I feel more comfortable after taking a second opinion from a friend. I jokingly say that it is the aftereffect of being completely surrounded by Librans and their balance (My closest family members are mostly Librans and I am sure they will not forgive me for this statement 😉).
I guess living a very sheltered life and always having some one at hand to bounce my ideas off has made me dependent.
Anyways so for a person like me to think of an incident where I completely trusted my own decision, I had to do a lot of deep diving.
When my kids were pretty small, the elder one was in Nursery and the younger was hardly a toddler. My life was all chalked up. My in-laws were staying with me. There was a full-time maid to help out with the kids. Me and my husband both had a good job. I was actually working with a government organisation having a pensionable job.
Out of the blue moon things changed on every front. There were some family obligations because of which my mom-in-law had to shift to her elder son’s house. My husband got a great opportunity to work in Pune. He shifted base to Pune and suddenly the responsibility of handling my job and two small kids felt very huge.
We tried to manage for 6 months but then I realised that at this stage I didn’t want a long-distance marriage. He was tired of travelling to and fro every weekend and kids were becoming very cranky and difficult to handle.
After a lot of deliberations, I decided to take a 1-year leave and move to Pune to see how things work out. To cut the long story short things did work out there and I left the government job.
People called me foolish to have taken such a decision… Others said this was a wise decision. The jury is still out on that.
But looking back all I think is things did work out for good in the end.