I SURPRISE MYSELF

From dreaming a dreamy dream
with my eyes wide open to
living a lifeless life with my
soul completely broken;

I surprise myself by turning the
curve of my lips downside up,
pretending to beat the blues when
already my soul has blown-up.

I surprise myself by
breathing every day,
by letting fate, with me,
callously play.

I surprise myself by letting you
play with my heart again,
when you so carelessly smashed
it without realising my pain.

I surprise myself by letting you
make me believe, every time,
that I’m at fault,
when you are the one
never to apologize for all
your fierce assaults.

I surprise myself by offering
you my world which you
shattered time and again,
and how I end up apologising
to myself for making such
a blunder but still an excuse I feign.

Now when my eyes have chosen to
see beyond that dreamy haze,
I pick up those fallen morsels of me,
I apologize to them in all ways.

10 thoughts on “I SURPRISE MYSELF

  1. “I pick up those fallen morsels of me,
    I apologize to them in all ways.”

    Ahh! That tells the whole story of a person who is going through so much agony. How beautifully you have written it Shwetha, so so fabulous it is… Thoroughly enjoyed the rhyme and angst reflected on this poem. A request – Keep writing such pieces for Candles Online. You are desperately needed here as a poetess…

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