MY FIRST CRUSH CRUSHED DEEP DOWN

“Mistakes are inevitable. But funny mistakes are the gems of our imperfect human life.”  — Chiradeep Patra 😉

We were promoted to 6^th standard. There was a beautiful girl who failed in class 6^th that year who became our classmate. She was feeling sad to be with us, her juniors but she was a very happy going girl.

And Lo and behold I had a crush on that girl big time… 🙂

I used to stare at her every now and then. I used to admire her every time she used to giggle… “Mmmmm… she was adorable…” I used to think. I used to dream beautiful flowery dreams concerning her. It wasn’t at sleep… But just day dreaming… 😉

It was a taboo among friends if a guy would talk to a girl alone then… It would have termed as there’s something between them… So I had never really dared to talk to her directly. We had talks only in groups along with other guys and girls and that to regarding school matters only.

But every time I felt her or saw her around my heart fluttered… And something happened once which was terribly embarrassing for me but had always brought me a glee on my face whenever I think about it. I am gonna describe that now…

It was a Hindi literature class. The teacher was talking about a story titled, Gudda aur Guddi ki Shaadi (Marriage of a male puppet with female puppet). As usual it was superb boring class… the story was rubbish with difficult Hindi grammar descriptions… But my mind was on the word SHAADI and I was dreaming… again day dreaming in the class. The class was over.

I was sitting beside a notorious friend then. He is the quietest one now, though. And I was blabbering something which he overheard. I blabbered, ‘Chiradeep aur Reena ki Shaadi’.

Yeah yeah, the name is fictitious… But that’s not important here now… What’s important is my status… It was at stake after the naughty friend started screaming in delight sharing what I uttered by mistake… I was out of my mind… and I pleaded him that it was just a mistake… it just came out… It was not true… But all my attempts were in vain… 🙂

My face was reddened, blushing. I was ashamed of my stupid tongue. I was cursing myself literally. And what really made me worried that time was my aunt… She was a teacher in that school and was my local guardian… in fact, she was everything to me. If she would come to know then the hammering and scolding would be of the highest level. All the teachers in the common room would come to know… They would scold me as well and laugh at me… What if the girl comes to know about it…? I perspired… perspired thinking all these…

Finally, there was one good guy, who pleaded the naughtiest to stop spreading what Chiradeep uttered by mistake. Somehow, he listened. And things calmed down for me in the classroom and in my heart. 😉

Lesson learned big time: Taming your tongue is of utmost value while you navigate your emotion in the right direction.

Next few days after the incident I was very careful about my behavior in the classroom among my friends. I didn’t even look at her. I literally avoided her. I went the other way when I found her coming towards me or close to me. But it is true that I fantasized her for quite a long time. I knew nobody can see what I was thinking in my mind… Lol! 

Later, Reena left the school after two years when she failed again and we went ahead of her. I don’t know whether she ever came to know about what I said that day but it’s true that she was my first ever crush which finally crushed miserably.  

This mistake of mine is a very precious one for me… I cherish it in my heart always because it makes me smile whenever I think about the whole CRUSHED saga. 

Please don’t mock me!!!